Chiron Retrograde Till 29 December 2024 Astrology Horoscope
Healer or Tormentor
Chiron started its journey in Aries from 17 April 2018, starting a process of waking up our wounds of individuality, initiative & action. Wounds we didn’t know existed but who have been silently running our psychological patterns & life choices. Much like a torn tendon which doesn’t let you put pressure on that one foot cause your subconsciously recall its weak and wouldn’t be able to take it & you will fall — you just didn’t use your weak points in Aries due to a wounding you have forgotten you received.
Chiron goes retrograde at 23º32’ Aries & like a phantom pain it all wakes up. You have been too busy trying to give lessons to others & forgot to heal yourself. So the questions come up.
Why do we not do what we want to do for ourselves & how does that wound us ? Why can we teach but not do the same in our life ? Why we can see potential in another clearly but not ourselves ? Who wounded your defiance & made you a sheep for sake of getting along in relationships ? How were you tamed ? By love, manipulation or fear or shame or trickled down feeling of inadequacy? Did it physically hurt when you stood up for yourself ? Or was it an emotional scar that wakes up to warn every time you stand your ground ? Why do you not laugh like a free child ? Why do you hide your drive, your success, your passion from the very people who are supposed to be your partners in life ?
We have a whole generation of damage with Pluto in Libra opposing planets in Aries so no it’s not just you or me who feel that way. I feel Chiron in Aries is healing a lot of these aspects our generation carries in our chart and it’s happening through healers coming in our life. But not in the shape or form we want. They may not be the saints lovingly healing it all through their healing touch. Won’t that be so non Aries, so non violent, so non Plutonic. How can it be ? Nah. We got a toxic brew of healers & tormentors…
The healers of our generation come first to wake up the very wound we have forgotten. We suppressed them not understanding why we don’t do right by ourselves. Cause it hurt when we did at one time. No child is born to fear their free actions, their free smile, their free spirit — it’s an acquired pattern. The tendon that hurts when you are about to take that step you know you need to take to make what you need happen — that tendon needs to be healed and thats why that “healer” is here. I know a lot of those healers are hurting you right now but it’s so you remember what you suppressed to make “nice” in the Pluto in Libra times. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t apply to those born after 1984 but yeah the GenXers and my early millennials are getting a dose of their own medicine right now so we do not pass this pattern down the generations, stopping people from being their true self cause it’s inconvenient to the harmony as they know it, it disturbs the symmetry they know or its not pretty how they like it or its not a kosher relationship as they believe one should be.
Living and not just surviving in relationships, in partnerships while managing to be your own person — oh what a challenge of North Node in Aries & South Node in Libra has come up with for all of us. Chiron says let’s make it impossible to move forward if you do not heal the imbalance you have between the “you” and “we”. Aries Sun — yes I am looking right at you as I am looking at myself with my Sun pat conjunct this Chiron retrograde (~13/14 April born) — Did you meet your “healer” or your “tormentor” . It’s tough to say which is which. 19 Feb Chiron North Node conjunction would have been key to look back to for the current process. Every fear, every insecurity, every wound ever dealt to your ego, your life path, your sense of self — your light — right now is being woken up so you never forget why you dim it and for who or what.
For all of us even if you are not an Aries Sun or Aries anything, you are seeing why you give your individuality, your independence, your spirit, your fire away. Whats your wound ? Who stole your courage ? Are you being pushed in the corner to finally stand up for yourself and prove yourself or fight for your independence to remember who you are ? I know it’s all coming out chaotic right now — its shadow period, I told you words wouldn’t be right at the moment. See beyond words — why are you fighting ? What are you fighting for ? It’s not the petty things or the subject at hand at all. This is repeated patterns especially in relationships, for Aries Sun women its especially related to men or father figures in their life. Ways in which we undermine ourselves and shrink ourselves in partnerships to fit a predefined peg. The healer comes with a message or with a tormented lesson and just like that we are in that wound, in the throws of another time long time back when this was repeated and we changed forever. In this moment of weakness its very easy to give into south node in Libra comfort and give into a partnership or another person to comfort us into feeling whole & form unhealthy patterns of codependency which ultimately will keep you away from strengthening the weakened Aries muscle. You would need to stand up for yourself, there is no choice or not doing anything about anything is a choice you and me are making to continue with that weak muscle which is slowly disintegrating and for Aries Sun thats not even a choice as it’s their entire identity which is diminishing without working on that muscle. Disappearing slowly as we know them, what a loss that would be to loose an Aries Sun identity, its a gift which is being rejected, dishonoured.
Its fruitless to try to convince others that the you that they always knew still exists inside or just fruitless to trying to prove anything to anyone. If that gives you any incentive or strength sure take the bait but it’s just that — a bait for someone else dealing with their own wound. Chiron in retrograde is so not about whats it to others at all. It’s the period to heal your own innate Aries qualities — doing the things you know you need to do, take the road you have always said you wanted to take, taking the action you always said you are going to take. Leo season is helpful as fire begets fire — bringing healing to our fire nature. At first too much of it. You take a bandaid out or get a person out of prolonged mind numbing anaesthesia — ah the screaming. It’s painful, it’s been painful this past few days of feeling it all with Chiron standing still turning retrograde but now till end of year (29 Dec) — we have so many supporting aspects to benefits from healing our Aries nature. There is so much to be gained by focusing this on ourselves versus looking outward for both cause of pains and offers of relief to others.
What are these Aries qualities I talk so much of healing ? When I was a small kid — my relatives used to say I shoot first & think later. I do not think anyone would really say that to me now. I am Aries Moon which I lived fully as a child & my Aries Sun is opposed by Pluto so I learned the art of modified behavior over years & assumed my Scorpio ascendent cloak as I grew to have any social presence. Only people very close to me know my Aries Moon & I myself have a love hate relationship with it cause I have had a life time of being judged for it even by close ones, especially by close ones. I did and still do a lot of things which one would be foolish to do including writing this article which my whole family would end up reading but yeah ok. So yes shoot first think later I would say. Doesn’t mean the gun needs to point at anyone, it isn’t even about anyone else, its about you — what you want out of this life, who you want to be, whats the unconquerable, unexplored land you wish to go to and not be a sheep anymore. This is the arrow you have been holding from your quiver stretched all ready to go but you just are doing the Virgo thing (significator of Chiron) — of trying to get the aim just exact and loosing time.
I am not worthy of it, I do not have the energy, the courage for it, I need to overthink this idea to death vs trying and finding out quickly, I have to have to assume a fixed identity all my life, I would wallow in self pity and judgement cause I failed before & I will forget all about my victories, I would like to wallow in emotions which clearly kill my drive, power & sexuality, let me find someone who can lead me vs being the main protagonist of my story one more time, let me see from the corner of my eye who is clapping or smirking when I take my first step so I have an excuse to back out immediately — do you hear yourself ? I am not trying to be rude here — I am taking my own advice where I am shooting this article without thinking but saying what I know instinctively in my bones to be true. What do you know in your bones to be true for you ? Can I dare you to stop stopping yourself and stop being your own worst enemy ? Can I provoke you as your tormentor to tell you there is not very many years left to do this ?
Aries qualities you have to look forward to once you actually take action despite your misgivings — Single minded action, self assured action (not externally incentivised life), assertion, authenticity, lack of indecision, no time or thought to judge self or another, pure raw energy & drive undeterred by analysis paralysis, ease, delight in doing things for the sake of doing them and the new experiences it would bring irrespective of the end outcome, physical vitality — irrespective of how you feel — doing physical things.
Gift of this year — Jupiter in Gemini will form many supportive aspects with Chiron which we can tap into through expansive mindset, positive words for self and what we are doing, expansion of knowledge of unexplored territories & finding positive associations or teachers who can help us heal. Granted Oct — Nov is when Jupiter will be more accessible for this to be exact (12 Oct & 2 Nov).
But there is nothing like Leo season to let your Sun heal (15 Aug especially — Independence Day 😂). Mercury in Leo trine to Chiron is key aspect of Mercury retrograde repeated — 18 July, 23 Aug, 2 Sept . Fiery words that come out of this wound we are healing would get perfected to convey what you want to in constructive manner and during this retrograde you and I would understand our wound better and what it drives us to do or lash out or not in what ways.
Cause we got to learn to handle our fire right.
Every wound can be leveraged to not be fake anymore, that’s where most art comes from … meaningful one anyways
Love, Charu 🔥 ♥️
